Miles has been having a hard time sleeping and we think it's time to toss the bottle.
Our kids are incredibly sensory seeking, so the thought of removing a soothing sensory stimulation is done very lightly.
Andrew didn't give up his bottle till he was five.
Last night was the first night of trying to go to bed without a bottle. Took about 45 minutes to put him to sleep (cause he was completely exhausted) but he was up at 2am for a bottle and cried until around 4.
He doesn't know how to sleep without the sensation of sucking. Or at least he doesnt think he can.
I rock him.
Sing.
Rub his back.
Soothe him through the fury of the tantrum.
My heart aches.
I think about my post from yesterday. Letting go of habits is easier when not embedded in a routine. But here we are at a core routine. Falling asleep at night. Change is a battle ground.
Behind the resistance is a fear that we can't.
A fear that we can't possibly fall asleep without a bottle.
But maybe we can.
Maybe if I let go and trust the hand that pushes me out of my comfort zone. The hand that comforts and reassures me. Maybe I can set fear aside and trust that I can fall asleep without my bottle
In the meantime, I'll be up with a very unhappy two year old pondering lifes great mysteries greatly anticipating the day that caffiene is an option.
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