Lent Day 11: Square Peg, Round Hole

I had one of those days where I just felt a bit out of place. I was spending the weekend with a dear friend for her bachelorette party. It was incredibly tame and laid back as far as bachelorette weekends go. We all just hung out in a beautiful house in Bodega Bay enjoying the scenery, amazing food and celebrating our friend.

All in all, it was a relaxing weekend, but I didn't know any of the other women prior to the weekend and didn't know exactly what to talk about. At the moment, I don't have easy answers to those basic questions like what do you do? I found myself searching for some interesting or concise way to describe myself and my current life phase. Nothing came easy. If I had a facebook status, it would be "it's complicated."

The silence gave me time to reflect and pray. I reflected on those moments when we feel out of sync with society. Like square pegs in round holes. I was at first very frustrated. Mom's groups, new churches -- it seems like everywhere I've been going lately is a hard place to fit in. I feel like I'm running against the grain and wonder - do I need to change who I am?

But as I conversed with God, my spirit changed. Those times of feeling out of touch with the world around us perhaps call us to be in-touch with who God made us to be. Moreover, the times of life where "it's complicated" (in between jobs, in complicated relationships, unsure of our next steps) also draw out a reflection of who we truly are. More than an occupation, a role, or a stereotype.

I finished the day with a deep sense of peace. Each of us are part of the body. We each have our purpose. I rest in that and celebrate the journey of all of us trying to work out what that means in practice.