Day 23: Drowning

Imagine a 3 day wedding with 2,000 guests and 150 brides. For whatever reason, that is on my plate for the end of the week. Emails keep pouring in with things getting canceled, switched, and people freaking out. As much optimism as I've tried to maintain about this whole thing, I can't help but start to worry that it might be a train wreck -- and I'll be on the first car in.

I look around my house - its a complete mess. I feel like I'm a complete mess.

Covered California, in its absolute glory, lost my birthday and so I've received news that for the moment the expensive insurance plan that I am paying for isn't covering me -- with an impending birth on my mind -- I've sat on hold with various customer service lines for about 5 hours at this point. No closer to resolution.

As luck or maybe Lent would have it, the kids are on spring break so I've been with them constantly trying to tread water but slowly sinking.

Still -- I do not lose hope. I know this present moment will fade. No matter the outcome of any of my current challenges, the Spirit ever guides me. I know that I am where I am supposed to be -- in the middle of my big messy life that God has called me to. I sit down and take a minute to close my eyes and breathe. Letting go our daily concerns. The small things that seem like BIG deals is for whatever reason sooo difficult to do. Praying that God show me the way of patience, peace and grace in the face of stress this week.