I spent the day entirely alone without much to do besides keep Eddie busy. It was on one hand beautiful and relaxing and on the other lonely and isolating. Entering into the wilderness. We have seasons in life and this time in Livermore has most definitely been a season of wilderness. Of wondering mostly alone trying to figure out what's next -- what should I be doing with my life? Who am I now? These questions don't have quick or easy answers. I've been asking them since Ulrich and I got married but they took on new dimension after I lost my job and had Eddie and moved to a new town where we didn't know anyone and despite my best efforts I haven't been able to make a single close friend.
Lent heightens this feeling of wilderness, but each year a promise of finding God in Easter carries me through the wilderness time.
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Wilderness times are hard ... I pray that God will give you an even more amazing Lenten experience than usual (in all the good ways), and in the fulness of time, send you friends who will manifest his love and shower you with blessings.
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